It is usually in the seemingly least likely places in which we have our "aha" moments, isn't it? As I approached the car wash, I marveled at the advancement of such a machine. Yeah, yeah, they've been around a very long time, but this country girl had not experienced one so advanced until a couple of days ago.
I well remember years ago driving up the dusty road for miles and miles every Sunday to attend church with my three kids. One particular Sunday, it was so dusty that the mini van looked as if it had just came through a dust storm on the open desert.
I pulled into the car wash in Elkins, you know, the automatic one. My boys were little then and they were simply in awe of such a thing. I jokingly told my friends that the way to thrill a country child is to take them through a car wash. Anyway, I reflected on that a few days ago as I sat trying to "take in" this "new-fangled" car wash. The young man pointed to the sign: "Put your car in neutral. Take your foot off the brake. Let go of the wheel." Easy enough? Well, no, not really. I had no sooner put my car in neutral, that the car began to move forward and I automatically pressed the brake. Again, I reminded myself: "take your foot off the brake, Blondie." As the car moved forward, I grabbed the wheel in order to steer it in the right direction... wrong. "Take your hand off the wheel, foot off the brake and put your car in neutral." All the sudden a light came on above my head. You know, like the ones in the cartoons in the bubbles? This is so much like life, sometimes.
We are traveling through life knowing it is a journey, not a destination. Yet how many times do we give our lives to our maker, only to "put on the brakes?" or "Grab the wheel?" It's easy to say: "Lord, I'm yours, or as the popular country song says: 'Jesus take the wheel.'" But, often it is difficult and very human, by the way, to try and steer our own lives instead of relaxing in our Father's care.
A scripture I found as a teen that has helped is: "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart. Lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths."
I love the illustration of the tapestry. God is weaving a beautiful tapestry in our lives. When He looks down he sees "the big picture" and the beauty he is creating and the purpose He is fulfilling. When we look up at the tapestry, we see the underneath with the threads and knots and, ofttimes, seeming confusion. It is times like this we simply "trust." The Old Testament, Hebrew word for Trust means to "stay upon, lean upon, cast yourself on." When I come to that place in my life, and I have so many times, I simply bow my head and say: "Lord, I humble myself before You. Do what seems good to you." Then, I take my hand off the wheel and foot off the brake.
Kimberly Morgan, MA, is a wife, mom and grief counselor. Contact her at firstname.lastname@example.org or follow her on twitter at kimmorgan63.